Trust Issues
October 14, 2008
Don’t get too close, you might get hurt.
Why has this been my mind set for the past couple years? I don’t think I’m aware of this all the time, but it’s there. I’m constantly pushing people away, but longing for friends and relationship. Same thing goes for my spiritual life. I’m holding back because I’m not trusting God with my heart. How could I not trust my creator?
I wish I could hold up a white flag and surrender everything to Christ, and I’ve tried, but really I’m just saying the words, not really meaning it. I don’t know why I think I can handle everything myself. It’s not like I’ve had any huge disappointments in my life that would cause me to be this way, but something must have happened.
I want to be able to pray to God and truly surrender everything to Him, without just saying it to say it.
Does this make any sense?
